I didn't read the other replies...but I was raped too a few years ago and had some...um...tearing...among other injuries....Honey, go to the doctor!!! After it happened, I was so confused and posted here....the exam is completely humilating that they give you, but it is worth it....you can also call your local rape crisis center and have someone be your advocate during your exam - they don't watch, by the way....they just listen to you...which is needed in a time like that.
I am really sorry about your trauma. My 3 year "anniversery" of my assault is coming up in September, and I am already getting nervous/down about it...If you need someone to vent to, please feel free to PM me.
Take care, and be safe with yourself.
*hugs if okay*
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