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i am sick to death of how my family think im ok, they critise why i take the tablets i do saying i dont need them and im fine, and why am i still going to the pysch.

Im diagnosed BPD i have insomnia and depression and they say im bulimic, my main concern is my state of mind i cant think straight i always think people are against me i think of suicide constantly.

I felt the way i do for years now and it dosnt seem to be getting better at all, i think it all boils down to a terrible stage in my life i went through.

I cant tell my parents this as they would be devasted and quite frankly just wouldnt understand or probably still thinking im ok, but its cause i cover it up i cant tell them and im fed up with covering how i feel up i just want to scream.

I feel like noone takes me seriously, im 21 and im so lost at the moment i dont even know what i feel it changes so often, i cant hide it but i cant tell either.

I just want to know who else has this problem?