Definitely do not focus on numbers. It becomes an obsession. I couldn't focus on anything but knowing how many days I hadn't cut. And when I slipped, I hated myself more for ruining the streak of freedom. It also made the temptation so much worse since I was thinking about it all the time. So, I too would advise finding something to do with your hands (I like baking for my friends) and forget the numbers. Numbers only make you feel more guilty. Every day is a new day. You've got this. Tell yourself you won't cut for a day, or just in the next hour. Small steps make for longterm improvement and help you feel less overwhelmed. PM me if you want to talk.
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