[rara avis]

I can't think straight, my mind is everywhere and nowhere.
I can't be unwell.... I'm not the sick one..
I can't make the voices stop. I need to be clear, just need to think for a moment. Can't they give me just a minute? I need just a minute...
I couldn't let them do it, so I did what they told me, I hurt myself, I hurt myself badly. I couldn't get the bleeding to stop so I went to the hospital and they stitched it up. They had a security guard in there with me because when they asked why idid it I told them. They thought I was crazy. The security guard, he was nice. He made me hold onto his hand and squeeze it. The Dr said something about 'command hallucinations' I had to try so hard to focus on what he was asking me- about music, he was keeping me distracted. The voices told me the Dr was going to drug me, then hurt me, it was really graphic. The security guard told me he wouldnt let the Dr hurt me. The Dr called my psychiatrist and he just told me to triple the dose of meds he gave me. I can't take the meds, I can't be hindered. I just need a minutes break...