You have not given up by going back on the meds. What you have done is come to accept your current state of well-being. You state yourself that you knew you should not have come of of them and that suggests you have not been feeling well for a while now.
If anything, this is a step forward for you. An acceptance that you need help and a willingness to try medication again as a part of that help. Do you think seeking therapy or counselling would help you in this?
It is a big step, and I can understand how it must feel like a negative one to you, do be gentle with yourself though - as you have done nothing wrong.
*safe hugs*
Roiben x
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