A lot of people will say the same thing - see a doctor. You seem really anxious about your state of mind, and without seeing a doctor, its only going to get worse. If these problems are really affecting your life its best to do so, specially if your hurting yourself. Keeping your problems to yourself and not talking about them is going to make matters worse, I should know because I did the same thing, never got help, and now I'm in a really bad state.
Stay of the drugs, skunk can screw with your mind and cause psychosis, specially if your predisposed to it, it causes some of the symptoms you've described, even if you havnt taken it in months. I self medicated for years, and that has a lot to do with my problems now. As for Bipolar, that's a serious condition. You describe being "manic" and having "mood swings". Being manic is a state in which you can't hide, you lack insight and are likely to be hospitalised. It's not exactly a happy feeling either. Mood Swings are a part of growing up, bipolar mood swings are not something that happens on a regular basis unless your ultra rapid cycling. Rapid cycling means you have 2-4 episodes a year and regular bipolar is infrequent. Rapid cycling is very rare. Also bipolar is often inherited, do you have anyone in your family with bipolar or schizophrenia?
What your going through Sounds horrible and you should see a doctor anyway. Don't start labelling yourself, because its only going to make you anxious and upset. Your behavior can alter to fit percieved symptoms as well. Also stay of drugs, specially the ones you mentioned. They completely screw with your mind, cause mood problems, paranoia, delusions and are generally a wasteful experience.
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