Um... Well, its not so much the scratching at the bites... It picking at the sores they turn into. And it's different when you are picking at them and it makes you think about si and then you wanna do the things you used to...
And I know of one person that I can talk to, but I'm reluctant to burden her with my problems right now. She did tell me she wished I would have come to her (she's a therapist), but still. I know that I have become dependant on her in the past when I was at my lowest and worst. So, I'm a bit reluctant to put her in that situation again...
And thanks about the 9 months.