1. List the ways that you self-harm <no tip sharing, be generic>
cutting, banging my head and hands, interfering with would healing.
2. How do these behaviors help you survive?
when life was really bad, it stopped me from doing something much worse to myself.
3. How does this behavior give me a sense of control?
I controlled how much I would hurt. How much damage I would do.
4. How/Why does this behavior release endorphins (the happy factor) and make me feel better?
I would go from feeling like I couldnt stop crying to not feeling anything, even a sense of accomplishment.
5. How does this behavior give me revenge?
It doesn't
6. How does this behavior punish me?
It doesn't. feels more like a reward.
7. When and why did you start this behavior?
In ninth grade when I was beginning to get the gist of my parents divorce.
8. How/Why does this behavior bring me affection, care, or emotional closure? (How does it comfort you? if this applies)
It somehow makes me feel like i did something right. weird I know.
Copy and paste this section, delete the lines that do not apply to you, leaving only the ones that do:
I want to show that I own my body
I want to express my rage at myself
I hate myself
I want to distract myself from other pain
I want to numb my feeling
I am trying to bring my emotions under control
Copy and paste this section, delete the lines that do not apply to you, leaving only the ones that do:
I want to show that I own my body
I want to express my rage at myself
I hate myself
I want to distract myself from other pain
I want to numb my feelings
I am trying to bring my emotions under control
Now, think about your reason(s) for harming, list 3-5 things you could do instead.
1.Mindfulness
2. paly the piano/ listen to music
3.write out how I feel.
Which of the following are true for you? (Again delete the ones that do not apply for you)
The scars are there for a reason, they remind me of my shame/need for punishment
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