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1. List the ways that you self-harm <no tip sharing, be generic> Cutting. Mainly, and burning.
2. How do these behaviors help you survive? Comfort me, control, distraction, bring me back to reality, release my emotions and purify the negative things inside me. Seeing the blood.
3. How does this behavior give me a sense of control? It just does.
4. How/Why does this behavior release endorphins (the happy factor) and make me feel better? It just does.
5. How does this behavior give me revenge? Because I deserve it.
6. How does this behavior punish me? Easily, I deserve the pain.
7. When and why did you start this behaviour? Started when I was 15 or so, because the guy I loved did not love me and I needed a distraction from the pain. The pain of not being good enough. I just thought I'd try it once, but it wasn't once. It becomes an addiction.
8. How/Why does this behavior bring me affection, care, or emotional closure? (How does it comfort you? if this applies) The pain is comforting, and a reminder that I am alive.
The lines that apply to me.
I want to show that I own my body
I want to express my rage at myself
I hate myself
I want to distract myself from other pain
I want to numb my feelings
I want to be rescued
I believe my body is a battleground
I want to cleanse myself
I want to somehow atone for my sins
I am trying to prove that I am alive
I am trying to get "high"
I am trying to manage my flashbacks/memories
I am trying to release emotional tension
I need a release valve
I need to get into a "neutral zone"
I am trying to buy myself time by focusing attention on physical rather than emotional pain
Now, think about your reason(s) for harming, list 3-5 things you could do instead.
1.Go running
2.Write or play music
3.Draw
4.See friends
Which of the following are true for you? (Again delete the ones that do not apply for you)
It's my body, I can do what I want with it
It's no big deal and shouldn't upset anyone
If I don't hurt myself this way, my pain will be worse
I need to be punished for what I did
It just shows how bad a person I am
The scars are there for a reason, they remind me of my shame/need for punishment
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