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Old 04-06-2011, 09:58 PM   #73
bellaboo55
 
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Join Date: Apr 2011
Location: scarbough
I am currently:

1. List the ways that you self-harm<no tip sharing, be generic>
cutting,pills
2. How do these behaviors help you survive?
it helps me from not going crazy
3. How does this behavior give me a sense of control?

i have control if i do it or not no one else has that control over me
4. How/Why does this behavior release endorphins (the happy factor) and make me feel better?

it doesnt
5. How does this behavior give me revenge?

it doesnt
6. How does this behavior punish me?

i do it to punish myself
7. When and why did you start this behavior?

when i was 8 or 9
8. How/Why does this behavior bring me affection, care, or emotional closure? (How does it comfort you? if this applies)

it doesnt

Copy and paste this section, delete the lines that do not apply to you, leaving only the ones that do:
I hate myself
I want to distract myself from other pain
I want to numb my feelings
I am taking over where my abuser left off
I am doing what my abuser brainwashed me to do, if I told
I am trying to bring my emotions under control
I am trying to prove that I am alive
I am trying to manage my flashbacks/memories
I am trying to release emotional tension
I am trying to buy myself time by focusing attention on physical rather than emotional pain


Now, think about your reason(s) for harming, list 3-5 things you could do instead.
1.write poetry
2.play games on facebook
3.talk to shay and family


Which of the following are true for you? (Again delete the ones that do not apply for you)
It's my body, I can do what I want with it
If I don't hurt myself this way, my pain will be worse
I need to be punished for what I did
It just shows how bad a person I am
It keeps people away
The scars are there for a reason, they remind me of my shame/need for punishment


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