Hmm, not sure how to word my thoughts, heh. Have you lost a lot of confidence through your mental illness? Just wondering because I lost most of my teen years and young adultness through having MH problems and didn't get the normal socialising experiences that a lot of young people learn from - kind of like missing part of my development. That has made it quite difficult to know who I am and has made it very difficult to feel okay about relating to people. Being poorly can take you away from a lot of what you had before and sometimes therapy can help work through those times in your life and build up resilence.
There again, I can relate to medication affecting parts of your personality. Some antipsychotics have dulled me down a lot and I don't feel as bubbly as I do without it. The first time I went on my current medication I actually ended up back in hospital with depression because I couldn't handle the huge changes in my feelings about how I was (un)able to connect with people. I came off that medication and things got a lot better. I'm now back on it but at a lower dose, and have got used to/feel little of the same effect.
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