last night this morning i wasnt really safe but i got through it. would say i'm mostly safe now. not completely sure, but i'm trying.
major thanks go to the ninja jen for putting up with a rambling fail of a phone call, when i ran out of school in my free (especially seeing as she was shopping!)
i couldnt say much of really bad stuff like suicidal urges on phone but at least it distracted me and made me a bit more positive :)
*give jen sticker*
haven't harmed yet, still kind of want to.
think i'm going to struggle for a few days after getting in such a weird mess of feelings, images and fright.
doesnt make much sense right now. last day of school tomorrow so determined to go in despite being rather wobbly and doubt of my safety.
thanks for bothering with me and all the kind words,
jen X
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