very intense.
i got soo scared she was going to do what they sometimes have to.
i knew she'd tell me before she did, but i was still frightened, not just of help or facing situation but of my self what i might do.
it did help to talk in person but it made it very real, and i kind of reacted badly.
i think she got bit worried that she scared me and about my safety. took me a bit to persuade her i was safe , still not sure i persuaded myself.
maybe i cope, maybe i get there i really dont know.
suicide stilll seems somewhat of an option. but i know i shouldnt.
pfft. *hugs*
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