I've, thankfully, not moved home after Uni, so I'm in Ireland at the moment living with my girlfriend. I have, since moving there, gotten the help of a psychiatrist and am in therapy with a psychologist, so that side of it is all good. I'm starting to address the issues and deal with it. I am starting to resent the person I gave up for, which is lame because it's not their fault I feel crappy.
I guess I don't feel like I've failed, I'm just wondering how bad it would be to go back to self harm until I'm ready to give it up for good. Right now I can't conceive never doing it again, I'm not coping particularly well without it and I don't really see the point I suppose. I am trying to deal with everything but it's hard and I'm feeling a bit lost.
Thanks Matthew. =]
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