You know this is so ****ing typical of God! I mean i was going to kill myself next week and now this! THIS is so unfair. I mean id been planning this for so long and i had it all worked out. Jesus ive spent £16 on printer ink writing all my letters to all the people i dont love anymore. OMG and then theres all those hours i spent searching Google maps for the ideal place where no one would find me for like 16 days. OMFG and then theres like all the time i spent on Spotify and Itunes sorting out a wiked mix tape to die to. Jesus do you know how long it took me to find suitable songs to die to?
OMG im just so utterly utterly pissed now. Even god is against me. And its gonna happen right in the middle of So You Think You Can Dance and Brittains Got talent and now im not going to be able to enjoy it as ill be so freaked and my anxiety will go thought the roof. Christ i dont think i have enough herbal tea and relaxation tapes to see my through the night? Oh yeah and Grrrrreeeeat, my sleep will like be all ****ed up, and if i dont get sleep ill be all cranky in the morning and that will really ruin my whole day. then ill like go outside and eeeeugh i just freak at the site of dead people laying all over the street. My OCD will compel me to tidy up all the corpses and arrange them into rows of three, and then what if its not an even number and then ill have to chop someone in half to even up the sides.
**** **** **** ****.
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