but need to let it out somewhere and dont want to tell anyone IRL
im pretty happy at the moment in all honesty, i have a lovely boyfriend, some good friends, a job for next year. uni work is getting me down a bit but im sure it will be ok in the end.
yet sometimes i find myself missing (although thats not really the right word, its kind of craving or wanting or something) being miserable. and i KNOW thats really really stupid, because when im not happy, i hate it, really hate it, and just want things to improve! I've been thinking, and i think its because when im not happy, i usually know why, and subconsciously know that at some point things will improve. but ive yet to have had a happy time that hasnt gone to sh*t or gone sour and i cant help but wonder how long it will last. this then doesnt help the situation, as it drags me down when im happy.
its/im so stupid
dont really know what im expecting by posting this, but i dont need anyone to tell me its stupid or im being ridiculous, cos i know that already.