thank you everyone and isabelle:)
I got up early and left for the city this morning but before I went in to see my counsellor I completely freaked out. I tried calling a few friends but no one answered and then I tried to call L my d&a worker who was also unavailable. I went into the waiting room shaking like crazy and so tried calling another friend again - thankfully she answered but told me she couldnt really talk:s
went back into the waiting room and came so close to grabbing my bag and walking out. Was too slow though cuz V, my counsellor came out to get me before I managed to leave :(
the apt was horrible. I was barely able to speak and the first 30mins were complete silence:(
....in the end I did get a few words out but it was hard. i had to write most of it :( stupid dick head!
After the apt I had to see my pdoc. It was hard again. I now have an assessment apt for the DBT centre she is sending me too:s
and me.... how am I feeling?
I want to cut and this time not stop.
I want others to finally see how badly I am hurting.
I am not ok.
I feel lost alone and confused.
I just want them to see me for how I am right now.
I just want them to finally see me.
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