It's not a waste of space - you're struggling now.
You say you don't want to die. Hold that thought. I don't want you to die either, I like your posts here. You do deserve to live.
Is saving the pills part of the plan you mentioned? Did you ever tell anyone about it? Is there someone close to you that you can give the pills to, just to hold onto?
Please pm me if you need to.
S
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