Thank you guys.
I'm feeling a little better.
I saw my psych yesterday and I ran my ideas past him. Basically I'm seeing a psychologist on the NHS now and she's quite attached to me but doesn't know how to help me. She doesn't understand dissociation, flashbacks or me much at all. It's a little frustrating. However, I know of this other guy who I've seen once and he is very experienced in complex trauma (my biggest thing) so I'm going to try and see him. Although he's private and I don't know if I could afford it. My psych agrees with all of this.
There's so much other stuff going on too...
My mum is insisting that I get a referral to cardiology & neurology following my stint in Intensive care (which makes sense because my pulse is always messed up, apparently my heart rate was irregular and I get chest pains all the time, I also pass out for no apparent reason), I also getting a referral to liaison psych, my CPN also doesn't know how to help me, I am pilled under with work and have missed numerous deadlines, my eating is screwed, I'm so exhausted I can hardly move.
Sorry I'm ranting.
Sarah - Thank you. I really think I should be in control of all of that. I haven't got it because the NHS is a nightmare and I've moved around a lot. There's also been confusion about what's wrong with me/what would be appropriate. I do try and treat myself in none hurtful ways.
I really appreciate your guys support.
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