Yes I did call the helpline. My 2nd counsellor from there, N was really lovely but tried making me promise I would really talk to my D&A worker this morning and then this arvo I would call N back....
I had very little sleep last night. But I was so exhausted I could not move. It was like I was in some kind of state drifting in and out of consciousnous? not sure how else to explaing it:s
saw my D&A worker this morning and it was very hard. Again I had to promise I'd be safe until our next session, only this time we wrote a contract and I had to sign it:s ....still not sure how I am feeling about this but I am trying my hardest to stop ella in her tracks
yet again.
After getting back home I asked to talk to my key worker here at the house but she was busy and wont be able to talk till later this arvo (ella is loving this
)
also yesterday when I saw my counsellor V, she said that she had actually been doing DBT stuff with me in session but I didnt really use it??? I dont know. So close to the edge and dont know what else I have to hold onto
thanks for the replies though. They help me see that I am not alone, no matter how lonely I may be feeling right now, so thank you!