I wonder if you can find a way to feel cared for without having to OD? Would seeking respite help perhaps in this - or a be-friender service.
Often, being alone is bad for us, as people, as we are not meant to be alone. It is natural to pine for something missing at times like this. I think taking the ODs has proven ineffective for you, however, and perhaps now is the time to consider what it is you really want, such as the care and feeling of being wanted - rather than the need for abusing your body.
There are better ways out there to find the things you want in this life, and I think that given time, you can find them.
Please do hold on for that.
Roiben x
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