Who was it that said you had depression? Did they explain it to you, and did they let you know what support would be available for you going forward, counselling/therapy/medication... all are options with depression.
I wonder how they have explained this to you - or if at all, as you do not sound sure. Not being "typical" does not make how you feel any less real. I do not have a "typical" form of depression either, but I know my feelings and reactions are still valid and real.
Do you think involving your parents would be a good thing for you?
I think it would be a good idea to speak to these people again and ask them to explain their diagnosis to you. To explain what it is, and how they can help you deal with your symptoms. CBT, for example could help with some of the thought processes.
Be gentle with yourself and maybe, in the mean time, look through some of the distraction lists and help available for self harm on the forum.
Roiben x
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