I have this problem somewhat too.. And there's definitely pros and cons to it. When im feeling down and all.. I would try to avoid situations like that. I ll feel bad and even more anti social by not going, but there are times i know that when im not feeling 'up to it' dealing with my anxiety problens, its gonna make me feel even more alone and miserable when i do go. So i just make up some sort of excuses to get out of social events like that..
But i guess there are times where u have to fight the anxiety and justgo ahead with it. A lot of times, i have a lot more fun than i thought i would. But it doesnt happen the whole night or all the time. Like through a party and im starting to feel nervous, i try to ignore it and laugh a lot and smile a lot to hide my nervousness. And surprisingly it does relax me and make me feel better about the situation.
Though there are many times even out with a small group of close friends i feel that i cannot break the barrier.. And start wondering if they dislike me now or my problems.. There are times when i feel so bad that in class i just close myself off and refuse to talk to anyone, and just have a very hostile attitude. I guess its really not gonna help but i try to reduce these 'moments' and just save for when im home alone..
Sorry if i digressed but i do feel you because i suffer from the same thing...
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