it hurts.
i'm confused.
i had an awesome evening on monday but also somewhat opened up to my boyfriend's brother's sort of girl friend/ best friend (her name is jen too). me and adam, my boyfriend, went out with his brother , chris and this jen for chris' birthday.
and i liked jen we had lots of chats and jokes and what she said was a better conversation than she could have with someone her age (she's 32 i'm 18). But i kind of ended up telling her stuff, like about my depression etc. and i'm wishing i hadnt she was mostly good about it and seems a lovely genuine person, but WHY? Why does it burst out of me that i end up telling people and regretting it so badly. i didnt go in much detail about it at first but she asked what is was like and i tried to explain and she was only tring to understand but i feel weird about it, that and a remark she made about me not seeming depressed and about self harm not being major (she did it when she was younger a few times) and soemthing about you dont need medication. She was a bit drunk it was all good natured when she noticed it was upsetting me/ i said i couldnt explain she stopped pressing just gave me hug and chatted. i think she genunely only wanted to undersatnd a bit. and it wasnt world's longest convo and we talked about lot else and had fun. but well its confusing.
and now i'm just crying.
seeing memories of bad things, it hurts.
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