Kinda, somewhat, maybe... Afraid to just say yes I guess. Often feel I make myself think about it because there is no other explanation to why I feel it or think about it! I know I dont and wont cause I know the pain but why then? Maybe I am just making it up, for attention? I dont know, just want it to stop!
Yet I dont. People dont like me and many hate me but cant tell them they cant when I do so to. Very hypocritical! Dont know what to do???? So drained and empty at the moment as well!
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