thanx for the replies, still under the docs and crisis team and have been in a safe house for 2 weeks . crisis team have told me sooner or later they think i will end my life which i already now , just for the moment i try to keep going for my son but its getting so hard now . having so much pressure at work and what with my other son not seeing me any moor ,i just feel so sorry for my son that lives with me it will destroy him when i finally end my life. the thing is i am very rational person and will try and help any body if i can , all my work friends think i make the care home a good place to work all the residents like me because i have a good sense of humor .But things have changed so much in my home life i am unable to get over it .I think some people know when there time is and all the meds and talking just wont change what is ment to be. i hope i can keep going for a bit longer and i think this is why i have started to cut myself to keep me going. sorry for sounding so morbid but i suppose i was just hoping that some one might understand why i have to do what i have to do, we had been together for 30 years me and my wife and now thats all gone
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