[insidemyhead]

this is due to someone who i know on levels im not willing to explain. They're manipulative and attention seek to know ends and they're know the right words to say even though its bullsh*t in order to make people react. They dont have mental distress or any form of real despair and pain in life they just do this in order to push people around and gain attention.

Im not talking about a person whos crying out for help and therefore people percieve they're acting as an attention seeker. Its they throw a pebble just to make people react! You know them the genuine people who attention seek not the ones who everyone else thinks are attention seeking or have real mental pain behind the ways they act.

And then this person gets brilliant reactions gets good care in community and whatnot. People actually take her seriously when she never does anything. I actually act on the things an people never take me seriously, ive not lied to get attention i never deliberately manipulate people to give me attention and i certainly dont be horrible to people to give me attention... i never go out of my way to make professionals jobs worse im entirely the oppossite the only times ive required hospital attention was other people taking me/ringing the ambulance and i was polite and thankful for their time. Why is it everwhere i go i get aweful and unproffessional treatment. Im angry at proffessionals envious that people treat her well where i just get treated like a doormatt or worse and im angry at her for treating people this way i dont know how she can do it! I really dont i dont understand how someone can treat people like that! I know there probably are underlying problems for why she acts this way i just dont get how you can do it, its like everyone the oppossite of me is the right thing to be and im just something to be shoved in the dirt and forgotten!

I hope this doesnt cause offence i am trying to be reasonable but right now im irrational so im sorry