Thanks Libz. :)
Sooo I talked to the leader of the prayer team (I'm on it though on hiatus from any prayer duties at the moment) after tonights meeting again. He knows the person who counseled me last summer (she was actually the former leader of the team) and is going to tell her she needs to talk to me. At which point I tell her I need help with all this. Scared to go. Im finally convinced that I need to. Kept trying to wait and see if things would get better, they've just gotten worse. SI'd again, to try and calm my anxiety. Thought since I went 7 years without hardly any trouble, things would just calm down again. But apparantly God wants me to deal with this now...
Ruby- hi! :) Ok, not true that Christians cant cut themselves! A Christian is someone who believes in, loves, and lives for our God. Christians aren't immune from struggles and sin. Now, what Christians arent to do is have a consistent sin and think nothing is wrong with it. God loves you. He wants to help you, not just other people. We've got free will though, and tend to mess things up. You're not gonna go to hell just because you messed up, there's complete forgiveness for those who live for God, through God the Son aka Jesus death on the cross. The only unforgivable sin in the Bible is that of knowingly rejecting God. It's about a relationship, loving Him, Him loving you. It's out of this love and by God's strength that we move away from sin. *hugs*
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