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Namaste · 03-04-2011, 09:32 PM

Today, my mom chose to inform me, likely solely in an attempt to upset me, that when I turn eighteen I supposedly will no longer be covered by their health insurance. Which worked in upsetting me, because it's a really scary thought. I'm /really/ sick. I have medications I need to take that will cost thousands without insurance, I'm as of yet STILL undiagnosed and tests that doctors need to diagnose me costs thousands (I just had an MRI that would have cost $6000+ without insurance, but we only had to pay about $900 which is still a whopping amount, but more doable). I don't know what to do. I don't turn 18 until July, but I know nothing about being an adult. I missed all of high school from being sick, and it seems other people learned a lot of stuff about what it takes to be an adult during socializing, talking to teachers about college, etc. I know nothing I need to.

I don't know how to figure it out, or if there is anything I can do. Most of my medications are "optional" in the sense that TECHNICALLY if I stop taking them, I do not immediately drop dead... but the symptoms I had are not livable uncontrolled.

I've always thought I'd end up killing myself before I turned eighteen for such reasons, and that becomes more and more a reality as it draws nearer. My mom laughs and says I better get used to not having painkillers, but I can just barely move WITH them. WITH these medications I still am unable to do most things in life. Without them, getting out of bed will probably never be an option for me anymore. And I've lost enough to my illness already, I can't take it becoming completely paralyzing in every sense of the word...

What am I supposed to do?
I'm so scared...

(I probably posted this in the wrong place, but I don't even know. >.< Just really frazzled right now...)

03-04-2011, 09:32 PM	#1
Namaste Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Tennessee I am currently:	I know nothing about being an adult. Today, my mom chose to inform me, likely solely in an attempt to upset me, that when I turn eighteen I supposedly will no longer be covered by their health insurance. Which worked in upsetting me, because it's a really scary thought. I'm /really/ sick. I have medications I need to take that will cost thousands without insurance, I'm as of yet STILL undiagnosed and tests that doctors need to diagnose me costs thousands (I just had an MRI that would have cost $6000+ without insurance, but we only had to pay about $900 which is still a whopping amount, but more doable). I don't know what to do. I don't turn 18 until July, but I know nothing about being an adult. I missed all of high school from being sick, and it seems other people learned a lot of stuff about what it takes to be an adult during socializing, talking to teachers about college, etc. I know nothing I need to. I don't know how to figure it out, or if there is anything I can do. Most of my medications are "optional" in the sense that TECHNICALLY if I stop taking them, I do not immediately drop dead... but the symptoms I had are not livable uncontrolled. I've always thought I'd end up killing myself before I turned eighteen for such reasons, and that becomes more and more a reality as it draws nearer. My mom laughs and says I better get used to not having painkillers, but I can just barely move WITH them. WITH these medications I still am unable to do most things in life. Without them, getting out of bed will probably never be an option for me anymore. And I've lost enough to my illness already, I can't take it becoming completely paralyzing in every sense of the word... What am I supposed to do? I'm so scared... (I probably posted this in the wrong place, but I don't even know. >.< Just really frazzled right now...) Last edited by Namaste : 03-04-2011 at 09:43 PM.