My depression makes me feel withdrawn. It makes me want to feel sad for no reason. I often describe it as a physical heaviness in my stomach or chest. I am hypervigilant, and feel very guilty for no reason whatsoever, and often before the act is even brought out. For example-I was told If I ever needed help, just to call. I feel sad all the time. I told them that I feel guilty when I ask for help. Like im taking up their time, even though they asked. I feel guilty over so many things. My head is revolving around very depressing things, and I assume a lot. It's a bit like....I try to mind read, and I strain all the good things out of a situation so Its just a big ball of bad. Lol Sorry thats the only way I could describe it. Feelings of loss, rejection, and wanting to hurt myself. Thinking i deserve pain are how I describe it.
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