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Option or need
Hey,
Guess I'm writing this post mainly to get me through a horrible patch of thinking....
It's been 8 days since I've SI'd and that's the longest I've ever gone,so I don't want to slip up now unless I have to.
I guess the problem lies with that I don't seem to feel anything normally, I can think and have many thoughts (normally negative) but never can I say I truly feel until I harm.
My life seems to move infront of me without the help of me anymore,I seem to be a passenger and a dark thing seems to be the driver. I don't know where he is taking me or what the cost of the journey is going to be. I just know that I can't seem to see forward,behind me is just memory and the light seems to fade the longer the trip takes...
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