On edge, of course you deserve it! Hope you managed to stay strong as am sure you have more strength inside you than you give yourself credit for! How you feeling today?
Mum24, your stronger than me! i couldnt get rid of the tablets, having them is the only thing that seems to make me feel calm right now. I started taking them last night but managed to stop myself before i took it too far and just slept it off in the end, feeling a bit rough now though but my own fault.
Talaiporia, thanx for your concern as well. I just tried talking to one of my closest friends about how am feeling and he would listen to me and try and understand i know he would but i just cant bare the thought of him and my other friends then worrying about me and then watching what im up to, Im seen as alot of my friends as the happy go lucky one whos carefree, doesnt get upset often and always up for a laugh. so i know how much it would shake them if they really knew how i was feeling. its sooo much easier to just put up a front sometimes, i suppose i want to believe it myself as well to some extent! this is so strange im not normally a big talker when it comes to myself and how am feeling so am finding it really confusing that am talking and whining on here. sorry, and thankyou for the support guys! x
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