Mmm I tried to get rid of my blades a few times. Each time it lead to aquiring more, or just being really creative. I think in a way, if your mind is programmed to harm, you can turn almost anything into a tool, especially when emotional and desperate. In a way, I found it a safety net when I was trying to stop. Because of the ritual and secrecy that came with them, it made me actually think when I had the urge. Instead of just having the urge and finding the nearest object, whether it meant in private or subtly in public. It was only after being free for 6 months that I was able to get rid of them.
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