I honestly did not think I would get any replies at all cuz of how low and badly I am feeling
so thank you everyone
Originally Posted by
Days Gone Bye
Hun, you're not invisible... i see you. Your bunny and guinnie pig are lucky to have someone like you who cares about them and feeds them and looks after their general well being. Im so glad that you chose to post here instead of doing anything... even if it is sjut for your counselor at least you chose to post instead and thats a really positive step. Plz be honest hun, you are not being more of a pain than your worth... hun people care what happens to you otherwise they wouldn't be trying to help/support you. Sorry i really dont have many words now but i really want you to know that you're not invisible.
merri I do not know what I am doing anymore. I do not see my counsellor until friday and that is forever away and right now I am feeling so badly that I am struggling to even make it through the rest of the day! Thank you for your kind words though, it really does mean a lot. I just guess I am feeling so low that I feel I am just taking up space and wasting everyones time. I am scared of myself right now
Originally Posted by
88shelz
Reaching out for help any way you can is a good sign.
reaching out to to someone who can sit with you and offer a real hug could be even more helpful. you are not invisible and people would rather help you and be happy that you are safe and well. x
shelz, I did manage to msg a friend last night hoping that we would be able to catch up over the weekend but she has yet to get back to me which is making me feel worse and even more unworthy
I hate hate HATE BPD and the control I am allowing it to have over my life right now. But at the same time I feel too tired and exhausted to even put my hand up and just stop for a minute and think... I feel like I am running on auto pilot right now
Originally Posted by
Stellata
You don't have to smile and lie. There are safe ways of being with how you're feeling, gently and tenderly. I can understand how you're frightened of the loss and the tears and the desolate emptiness. Maybe there are ways you can reach out for connection, even if it's texting someone you know about something completely random. And be extra kind to yourself, hold yourself kindly.
When someone's left, I know how much that can stir up feelings of being unworthy for anyone. But, you are worthy, very much so, it may be hard for you to take in, but it is still true.
Maybe curl up with a blanket around you and read a good book or watch a film or do some word puzzles. You might like to journal or draw. And if you cry, that's ok. It is safe to be yourself, really it is.
katie, you sound like my counsellor at the moment... its a good thing though as I know what you are saying is true - thank you. I really struggle with just sitting with how I am feeling and being ok with that. I am the kind of person that feels a certain way and then must act on that straight away you know? I am really scared of that part of me right now.
Originally Posted by
roiben
I can not put it as well as Katie has, above, you are worth help and attention though and you sound like right now, you need it as well.
Do try to be honest and ask for the help you need. Also, listen to what your body and mind are telling you and be gentle with yourself.
Roiben x
roiben - a worker will be in this afternoon... I will try and talk to her about how I am feeling but I do not know what anyone can do to help me right now. I know I am not ok right now but I also dont know what I need.
.....well thats a lie... I know what I need but I know its not something I am able to get as I am an adult now
suicide feels like the only option but I am fighting myself to try and stay safe and keep my phone on me so I can txt someone if I cant stop myself from keeping safe
Originally Posted by
Wannabfree
lots of hugs from me lozza...please give me a call if you want to over the weekend. You are not invisible to me at all. Im often thinking of you xxx
thank you kerry. it really means a lot and I am sorry you are going through a shit time too. love you. I will try and call you later on if my head will let me. xx
Right now... right now, I do not know what is happening within my head. I just... I see the black hole and I feel I am getting even closer to losing my grip and falling down into the pit of nothingness. It feels too strong right now