[Broken Neko]

As of late, my depression has come back, really hard. It's like nothing seems to matter anymore.. and i feel like such a bother always bugging my friends to help me not stay alone so i cant cut as often.. But after several months of not cutting I've slipped and it's a constant fight against not cutting. and honestly, I'm suicidal.. I can't get Professional help, i don't have the money for it, and i don't want to tell my mother (who could pay for some for me) because she always yells at me and blames me whenever i get like this.. I'm slipping, and I'm scared once I'm home alone I'll go too far and act on my suicidal urges.. every blade I see I only see it as my friend, one to bring me to my temporary happiness