[Celticroots]

Recently,

Hitting has started to replace cutting for me. Things have just started to pile up, and I feel like hitting releases all the crap inside. I haven't been cutting because of taking care of cuts, risk of infection, although I know htting has its own risks as well. Plus I don't want to hurt my Mom, even though replacing one form of self-harm for another doesn't help. Don't get me wrong, hitting myself scares me and I want to stop, but there are still times (like right now) where I feel I need it, as well as other forms of SI. Don't know if that makes any sense or not. The fact that I can control something soothes me.

Hitting was my main method of self-harm as a kid, and I find it just as addicting as cutting. There wasn't really a point in posting this; just wanted to get my feelings out.