Again,thank you for the kind responses.
I do think you are right, I should involve my parents I guess I'm just scared. They never seemed to realize how depressed I've been,no matter how hard I've tried to tell them. I think my mind went to hospitlization because I'm so anxious about fearing doing anything worse,but I think my fear may keep me safe from needing that.
I don't know if it's possible,but at times I'm suicidal yet terrified of death. I think my brain wants a vacation,not an end all,and realizing that has helped me a bit.
The list idea, that sounds brilliant, I will definitely try it.
As does finding out the triggering events, I will try this as well. Thank guys so much, it's such a relief to feel not alone. I think even just finding this site has helped me a lot all ready. Being able to talk about it and not hide it is amazing.
My main issue right now is that I do have a stomach condition being checked out in two weeks, they'll need to knock me out and use an I.v I have marks still on my left arm, I feel like that's not the time nor the place for my poor parents to find out. I just don't know what to do. I've been using neosporin religiously and it's healed faster,but there ae fading scars that I'm afraid won't,you know, disappear. Would concealer or something work? I do plan on telling them,but like I said, I really feel like it'd just be a double whammy. (Plus I'm really afraid of the doctor noticing. =/ I don't know if they use a specific arm for I.vs,but my left one isn't too thrilled with the idea.). =/
Thank you,again! Times a million <3 you guys are the greatest.
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