I think it would be wise to discuss this with your therapist. Not because it is unheard of, or freakish, but because it is something that is distressing you.
I wonder how much of your actions are a form of self harm, and how much are looking for pleasure. As you say you have not gained pleasure from these actions. It may be that you have a condition which causes the body to tighten and react badly to stimulus - which can be painfull, but is also treatable.
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