i don't think you're over reacting, it sounds to me like a very tough week! however my thoughts are maybe you could try look at in a positive light that u don't have the means to hurt yourself? do you want to try not hurt yourself, or are you not ready for that?
if u don't want to...maybe u could try putting off buying the blades, half an hour at a time (its what i do when i want a smoke), like say...ok i can buy them in half an hr, then when its time see if u can put it off another half hr...etc etc
sorry if this is no help
xoxo
kaye
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