I think, when you wander away from self harm for a while, it becomes easy to fantasie about it. To wrap your mind up in how safe and comfortable things felt when you did it. But, in reality, I dont think it ever was like that. I mean, if it was so good, would you have ever thought to look on the internet for others and in so doing so found this site?
Sometimes, I find that it is easy, to want to drift back into old ways. Changes is mega scary as is facing the unknown. But change can also be good, as can facing new challenges and coming away victorious.
In truth Chels, I dont know what is happening with you at present. But you dont have to go back into old habits. You broke apart from it once and you can do it again. Can you give more information on what is happening at present? Or even, think, was there anything or anyone who helped last time you felt like this?
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