I can give more descriptions I suppose. I feel totally tfake. I feel like a sitcom character (Jazz from Fresh Prince or something) I am just a man of gimmicks. But I have been working so hard to just be entertaining for so long that I guess I think its not even fake anymore. But I still feel that way.
Next issue, I have a brutal conscience. I think I am totally unforgiving. Not that I hold grudges with anyone. But I don't forgive them. Whenever I think somebody does something stupid I come up with some hypothetical that no matter how bad it looks they may have done it with good intentions. So I can "forgive" them because maybe I don't know enough of the situation. However, when I screw up I know my intentions.
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