*hugs*
Just wanted to say, I know the feelings you describe in the letter. Whatever decision you make is OK, remember that it IS your decision, your right not to see him. But also remember... rock bottom isn't always as clear cut as you might expect it to be. How will you realy know when you reach it? How do you know when it gets to that point, that you will still be the one in control of the decisions taken? Right now, however hard things are, they are your choices to make... and that is important to remember. If your choices don't include your psych, that is fine- why not try and work through a back-up plan? Take it to him and he will be able to see that you are responsible, you have thought this through, you are clearly intelligent and able to make decisions that may not involve him, but are not unconsidered either.
It was brave of you to post that letter here, and to try and talk through it with him.
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