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Steel Maiden · 27-01-2011, 10:53 PM

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Originally Posted by PilotVeteran

Thanks for the replies and the feedback. Still when I think of some of the ways I acted in the past it makes me embarrassed, I know every could see I was unwell but to be that out of control scares me. I'm working with my therapist at understanding and acknowledging things will take time for me to recover. I just hope I don't get like I did last year again in the future. Sometimes I find it hard to know where I begin and the illness ends too, I've been isolated for the last few years and have sort of lost my interests. I am trying to find that in myself at the moment. Pleased I will be starting a horticulture course with the mind charity in my area, it will be positive to try and start getting out again =]

Just saw that bottom post now. I'm in psychotherapy at the moment, have had the same therapist since Jan 08 and we have progressed a lot in that time, but things have been really difficult too. I find things hard because as a result of the social isolation caused by being unwell I now have extreme anxiety outside - I think my last admission made it worse. I think I've grown though, which is positive. Its just hard that the memories will always be there somewhere.

You're welcome. I understand your embarrassment. I have had similar. I'm glad that you have your therapist to help you recover. The illness can take a lot away, but I still see that inner strength in you. Horticulture course sounds good. I think you will do well, but just give yourself time. Don't rush things. I've rushed things in the past and it hasn't helped.

27-01-2011, 10:53 PM	#7
Steel Maiden There is no place like 127.0.0.1 Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: London	Quote: Originally Posted by PilotVeteran Thanks for the replies and the feedback. Still when I think of some of the ways I acted in the past it makes me embarrassed, I know every could see I was unwell but to be that out of control scares me. I'm working with my therapist at understanding and acknowledging things will take time for me to recover. I just hope I don't get like I did last year again in the future. Sometimes I find it hard to know where I begin and the illness ends too, I've been isolated for the last few years and have sort of lost my interests. I am trying to find that in myself at the moment. Pleased I will be starting a horticulture course with the mind charity in my area, it will be positive to try and start getting out again =] Just saw that bottom post now. I'm in psychotherapy at the moment, have had the same therapist since Jan 08 and we have progressed a lot in that time, but things have been really difficult too. I find things hard because as a result of the social isolation caused by being unwell I now have extreme anxiety outside - I think my last admission made it worse. I think I've grown though, which is positive. Its just hard that the memories will always be there somewhere. You're welcome. I understand your embarrassment. I have had similar. I'm glad that you have your therapist to help you recover. The illness can take a lot away, but I still see that inner strength in you. Horticulture course sounds good. I think you will do well, but just give yourself time. Don't rush things. I've rushed things in the past and it hasn't helped.
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