thanks rowie and solo, and emma!!!
Emma,
he gave me hydrocodone which i think is equivalent to co-codamol there. its basically a combo of aceitamenophen and codeine. and when the infection is so deep the pain killers barely take the edge off. im so sorry.
please get yourself to a dentist. that infection can spread and make you very very ill.
my social worker came today. he and i were talking and kelly walked into the room and made a remark about how she dreaded going to the docs this afternoon. i exploded.
i told her that i was having time with my SW and if she needed to complain to someone that her SW would be here soon!! it all happened really fast. next thing i know we are both standing up face to face screaming. pure ridiculous.
my SW witnessed all this and helped us calm down. it was so weird thazt i blew up so fast.
everything goes back to Keith. im jealous that she has Kaleb but also very happy. i have Kaleb too. its so hard to explain. i cant even explain it to myself.
i feel terrible. i think my emotional pain is turning into physical pain such as constant headaches.
the pain never stops. its been 9 years!! everyone always says it takes time but they never specify how much....
kelly gets her pain meds today and i hope they will fill them even though its a bit early. my dentist doesnt give me near enough for the pain. they are all gone and now im just eating aspirin.
i want to get in a hot air balloon and fly to where my baby is and land in his front yard :) its always nice to dream.
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