Yes absolutely I relate. Sometimes it feels that life is swirling around me so fast and I've been knocked off my feet by it and am sat on the floor dazed and confused! It is crushing that feeling of needing to express an emotion but being completely unable to. I think I'd rather be depressed than numb....(okay I'm saying that now, i'll likely say the opposite when i'm depressed so don't hold me to it!!). But I do think it is kinda true because I think it comes down to feeling connected - sometimes being connected to bad feelings is less isolating than having so many and yet so few and not knowing what to think or feel. If that makes sense!
When I feel like that it is time to hunker down and get through. I tend to be less self punishing ironically and more withdrawing....if it helps I generally daze out and go to town to a coffee shop and 'read' (i'm not reading because the concentration is shot but it helps to pretend). It does truly suck, I relate alot. I hope the mood changes for you soon. Let us know how you are.
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