Hello. I want to start by saying anyone can talk to me at any time.
I was using a whole lot of pain pills and weed between the ages of 16 and 21. I was using Oycontin upwards of 300mg a day. I couldn't get out of bed without snorting some, couldn't go to work, couldn't sleep. Then my boyfriend at the time, who was also hooked, revealed that he had bought heroin and wanted to try it with me. I started snorting it, didn't feel hooked, but loved it. Two weeks later I shot up for the first time. After that first rush I was using needles 3-5 times a day. Driving 30 minutes each way to the ghetto of the city for the stuff. One day I got in an accident and didn't have a car to get to the city and I ran out of pain pills and I withdrawled. I hadn't been sober for an entire day in over two years. It was hell to say the least. I was clean for about 2 months and then started using pain pills again daily. When I turned 21 I decided to get clean, I took up drinking in its place. On top of that I went on an Ecstasy binge with a good friend. We were taking 1-3 pills a day for 2 weeks. When we couldn't get any more of that we started using anything we could get our hands on, we needed that rush, that speed, that high. the two of us blew through a ball of coke in an hour, did crack once, countless different prescription pills, inhalents, and I snorted heroin one more time. And of course, alcohol until we black out if we can't get anything else.
I know what its like to be an addict. I'm 21 years old and have been hooked on countless things. I know the pain and the need. You are not alone.
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