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Is it wrong *mentions SI*
Is it wrong... :(
Is it wrong for me to want my family to be there for me too :( && see juss how bad i'm hurting. Ever since my brother was diagnosed with cancer, things have been really really hard. && it's really making me depressed again. I don't want to be here. I juss want to like sleep the world away. I wish my family would notice but they don't. && when my sister made a comment to them... it juss seems to be that i need to stop trying to get attention && realize my brother has cancer.
I feel like they are right, I feel horrible for even wanting any attention. But I just want my family to be there for me too. && I feel like they aren't. I know my brother has the shitty end of the stick :( but I have to sit back and watch him andd all I want to do is protect him. I can't even do that :(
It's all getting to the point where I want to start relapsing every day :( I wanna smokee && forget everything. I just don't want to be here anymore..
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