yesterday when I was changing the dressing on my leg I couldnt stop myself from making it worse:s
I spent most of yesterday afternoon making something for a good friend (she is finding things tough too right now) and although I may have smiled once or twice - it was very short lived and didnt last
right now I am in my room sitting on the floor. I feel like talking is pointless and there is no use when I cant even verbalise the very bad thoughts racing through my mind:(
I am trying to listen to music to shut the thoughts out but its no use - they are too loud
I just fucking give up! There is no point to this constant battle. Maybe once I could have fought this shit and won... but right now I dont think I can.
sorry - just how I am feeling right now *cries*
I dont know what to do
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