[MissAnonymous]

Linzie, I get the feeling that you are still saying in a roundabout way that you still struggle to accept you have a problem. I think you NEED to accept you have a problem before you can be sure you are ready to recover.

You need to be sure. The more times you [unintentionally, maybe] mess them around, get referred back and they see no change in your motivation or commitment to recovery, the less likely you will be referred in the first place again. Its harsh but true.

Please be careful and think deeply about what you are ready for, and what your not ready for. Maybe discuss it with your GP, but be honest about what you can commit to [in the long term]. Recovery is a long winded process, and you will need to maintain your commitment for as long as they are treating you else they will discharge again.

I really hope this is what you want. xx

Also, I forgot to ask, but its important.. Why do you think you got worse under their care. Did you feel they were not caring enough, was the treatment not right? Either way, you need to think about how you can stop this happening again, and be clear about how you are going to try and prevent it. Sometimes it is necessary to actually tell them what you want and need. To give them the direction, after all you know you best, is it a dietry approach that helps to start with or a psychological approach, would CBT techniques help you rationalise or would you like to try a day patient programme, is it the practicalities of maintaining a healthy lifestyle that you struggle with.