This doesn't make you useless, or weak, though I can understand why you feel that way.
Try and see it from this perspective: To most people, the thought of harming themselves is alien, and faced with the act, I doubt most people could. Self harm is not normal, it is against our basic instincts. The fact that you can't do it right now is more of an indication that something is working right than a sign that something's wrong, if that makes sense.
Have you tried finding an alternative to self harm? I know it must be really scary to lose this, but it might become easier once you have other ways to cope with your feelings. What do you do now when you feel like hurting yourself but can't/don't go through with it?
It's a big change, but it could also be a good one. You're a lot more than "just" a self harmer, and lots of things you can be proud of, I'm sure. Hurting yourself is not a good reason for that.
Take care of yourself, and keep talking if it helps x
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